Ice Queen

What happens to my Facebook status?

Recently, I wrote something suspicious in my FB status. I often wrote about something called "ice queen". What is ice queen? Or maybe who is the ice queen? Why I wrote about ice queen? When it began? I don't mind if you want to read this posting or not. What I want is just to pour my thought in this posting. Since I don't really believe anyone, what I can is just writing in this. Ok, this post is related to previous post I tried to hide, titled Intermezo. One of my friends said that I always write personal posting in some complicated ways. It's true, because of my nature, I couldn't say everything just in direct way. Only people know me much can interpret my personal posting, including this posting.

Ice queen, one phrase that comes from a song of my favourite band, Within Temptation. I use that nick for someone I admired. Who and why? I think you should read the previous related post before continue reading this posting. Ok, lets start from "why".

I am hard to fall in love. In my life, I just admire 4 girls, in serious way, include this ice queen. The first girl I admired is my classmate in Junior High School. Wonder who? Maybe there are just a few people know about this. Since I used to be a silent person, or maybe near to "jaim", I never tell anyone about this, but some people knew. And because I was too shy to confess or just to act that I admire her, it became one side love. The second girl is my friend in Senior High School. Again, I wasn't changed yet. I am too shy to show my feeling. And because something complicated, I lose my bestfriend forever. The third girl, I think she already existed in many posts in this blog. I don't want to remember that again.

Back to the main problem, why I called the fourth one as ice queen? The first three girls are active girls. Although I was silent, they would stay noisy by theirself. Ok, I don't want to tell about my past life. The focus is about this ice queen. Who is this ice queen? Why I admire her? What my effort to get closer? I think I lose my mood to tell it now. Haha, lets continue this someday. Just follow my life to know this story. I promise I'll tell everything when this part of my life is cleared, whether with good or bad ending. But, I hope this will be happy ending. Support and bless me all!!!